Fen study continues in prospect basin
Tracking the lyric valuables in the shadow of Lone Cone on Colorado's Western Slope
Sunday, August 14, 2022
Pandora's Amphora #1
Remembering Finn Thilo Trommer
Rosemerry, Finn's mother, has been writing through her loss and grief and helping us all understand the power of love to overcome even the most devastating of tragedies. Many of you came join us for this memorial to honor Finn and how he touched us. Here is one of the many poems Rosemerry has written in the wake of his passing:
The Unheard
I do not hear his shrieks of laughter
escaping from his room.
I don’t hear his hand beating time against the table.
I don’t hear the luff of his breath
as I stand beside him while he sleeps.
I don’t hear the fear in his voice
when he begs me, please mom, please.
I hear the rain on the rooftop,
a morse code of love I don’t know how to translate
except in shades of green.
I hear cars on the highway,
and remember life is moving.
I hear the whir of the hummingbird wings
and the black notes of crows
and the silence where the boy
no longer grows.
If you ask me do I hear his voice,
I would tell you no.
But that is only partly true.
I do not hear his voice in words.
I don’t hear it the way perhaps I wish to.
But I hear him inside me, not a whisper,
but a voice that sounds startlingly like my own,
a voice that sounds like rain on the roof,
like cars on the highway, like hummingbird wings,
like crows, like the silence
where my love for the boy still grows.
Monday, August 1, 2022
Iris & Aurora Visit
Tuesday, July 5, 2022
Shelton: A Fork in the Road
A Fork in the Road
Posted in Confessions of a Grandpa, Personal History, Watch columns by Peter Shelton on July 5, 2022
[Now, with the Supreme Court’s reversal of Roe, this column of Peter's, from 2013, has fresh resonance, to go along with the anger and disappointment in America’s rearward direction.]
As the 40th anniversary of Roe v. Wade came and went last week, I thought, inevitably, about the abortion I caused, struggled with, decided on and went through with, in 1967, six years before the Supreme Court made the procedure legal.
Not I alone, of course. My girlfriend had something to do with it. A lot to do with it, yes. And my mother. And my father. And a doctor I never met, who ended the pregnancy on a cold Sunday afternoon in December.
We could scarcely have been more naïve. It was my first physical relationship, the summer before starting college. That’s no excuse, but it was a fact as we explored and experimented and ended up, late that fall, with a couple of missed periods.
This girl, I’ll call her M., couldn’t tell her mother, so together we sat down with mine. There were some tears, but after the initial shock I remember the conversation settling, as most did in our house, into a reasoned examination of the options.
I had thought my dad would be the most ardent about getting an abortion. It had only been a matter of months since he’d given me some fatherly advice, expressing his hopes for my college years. He said those four years had been for him the freest, the most open-ended of his life, and he wished the same unencumbered time for me.
But Dad seemed intrigued when I brought up the possibility of our keeping the baby and my joining the Navy. He had been in the Navy during the war. We lived on the coast; we shared a love of boats and the ocean. (He was also a real straight arrow when it came to knowingly breaking the law.)
On the other side of the world Vietnam was raging. I had a student deferment, but nobody knew what might happen long term with the draft, and maybe, I thought, this was a fork in the road, the first in my young life, fate nudging me off the path most expected. I was more than willing to get married. I thought that was the outcome M. and I were headed for, whether or not we became parents at 18.
M. was not demonstrative on the Navy option. (We’d barely had time to talk ourselves.) She had also been more or less silent on the option of taking the pregnancy to term and giving the baby up for adoption. She was in college, too, at a branch of the University of California closer to home. Given the weight of emotion and the psychic exhaustion in the room after a time, I think she just wanted to do what was best for all of us. And by the next morning that best thing clearly was to terminate the pregnancy.
My mother was the one who, once the decision was made, steeled herself to action. She had friends, friends whose daughters had “gotten into trouble” and had to be rescued. M. and I knew nothing of this world; we would have been at a complete loss had we been on our own. Mom took over, arranged everything. She wasn’t happy about it, but she believed it was the correct solution. She was fond of M., but she knew it was mostly about the sex. She had warned me, gently, at the outset of the relationship. Too gently, I guess.
It was hard for me to think straight as I paced the alley behind the surreptitious clinic. It was too soon for perspective. But if I had been able to see the bigger picture, I would have realized how many lives were in fact saved that day: mine, M.’s (we parted, amicably, about two years after the abortion), probably M.’s mother’s, too – a single woman perched unsteadily on a financial and emotional edge.
Our decision also saved, or made possible, the life Ellen and I found together, starting in our mid 20s. And the lives of our dearly anticipated children and grandchildren.
I couldn’t see the future then, of course. I walked up and down, numb and anguished both at the same time, while M. and my mother were inside.
I remember there was a lot of broken glass in the alley. As I walked, I stared hard at the shards, like stars in a black asphalt sky, reflecting the sun on an unusually brilliant early-winter day.
Sunday, July 3, 2022
Roe v Wade
* “Ki” is a grammatical neologism Indigenous science writer Robin Wall Kimmerer advocates for using in place of “it”, “its”, “it’s” or “itself” to help correct English’s objectification of phenomena. The neologist term is harvested from the last syllable of a longer word in Potawatomi for an “earth being.” As a pre-school teacher I learned that we humans learn best by going through the known to the unknown. Instead of substituting “ki” for “it”, I’ve chosen to add the Indigenous neologism to our neutral English pronoun as a suffix, changing the way we speak of things in English from inanimate to animate. Indeed, that syllable, “ki”, is a Potawatomi suffix meaning “from the living earth.” Thus, itki means that even gender-neutral objects are in some way alive.
Thursday, June 23, 2022
Vaudeville at the Transfer Warehouse
Marko & Sally (Ryan & Meaghan?) were emcees, and did a lot of playful sketches and intros, especially a song skit called Stud & Babe. A bellydancer, my neighbor Tia performed a wild masked dance and used twirling ribbons very impressively. The We 3 a cappela choir of Amy, Leah and Joana did sumptuous harmonies.
A lovely fellow whose name I didn't catch had a rollicking Lift Ticket song that had everybody singing along. Tim and Ek of Ragged Soles performed original music, as well as Ethan (solo) and For My Family (guitars, violin and singer). Audience members competed for a demonstration of "Stupid Human Tricks" and Penelope Gleason won the prize for her facial movements.
The finale
was Logan & Nicko
doing a burlesque skit
Logan was a
wild dancer
The audience
ate it up
Joanna Spindler did a wonderful piece that she premiered at the Telluride Mushroom Festival last year. I performed my Forever Wild piece about the town's saving of the Valley Floor
Forever Wild
The revolution's
in the evolutions of the DNA solutions
Not the human convolutions of political pollutions
No bloke should have to choke
to breathe the bloody smoke
& endure all the dope our dis-urban folk
are force-fed & white-bred to buy buy buy buy
Rednecks know how the cattle go
& the sheep & the pigs at the rodeo
where the 4H ranch kids show & sell
their darling pets to the slaughterhouse vets
Hell, yes!
for grand prize ribbons & barbequed ribs
You better bet
Daddy
keeps a rifle loaded in his pickup
& if you’re a predator
he ain’t no host
As for Mama
she’s kicking up her heels at the Hitchin’ Post
so she can catch a little living
before the oven turns to toast
If we fast-food forward
where we seem to be headed
even the best will be bedded
in a sunset Sony big screen faux-dream
Mad Max Halloween
where they’ve stolen all the treats
in streets stripped of stars
chockfull of cars
on their way to the bars
The trick for the tramp
will be holding the lamp
so’s to be half slick enough
to slip past the thick stuff
they pour in our path
Fame. Fortune. The amenity math
whose sum shines so bright
there’s no time for fright
‘Cuz if you fall on your face
you’re out of the race
Look, you can't kick the habit
if you can’t take the heat
So let's eat, McRedeye sez
the sweet meat of anger
that feeds into action
to halt the reaction of corporate factions
Fleecing the flocks & shaking their fists
Unleashing their chickenhawks
for pre-emptive hits
Time to call “Bullshit”
& Seattle their trade talks
Like Telluride did to that Blues & bruised
fat cat plan
to supersize & infill
the glacial till of the Valley Floor
No way said the townsfolk
who scraped, borrowed, begged
& bought the sucker
An owner’s weighted bait
we refused to swallow
or follow hook, line and sinker
to the gondola mandala big pond stinker
No, we realized right from the start
what shaded our eyes
& kept people apart
And you could too
You could dare to dream
To band together senior and teen
for the good of the land
Take an Earth First! stand
Toss a wrench in the machine
Let’s cut to the heart
with a smart green blade
& come to the aid of those who oppose
greed’s bottom line charade
Let’s embrace what’s wild
Pray for open space’s saving grace
Surround your town like we did our town
Where seven generations from now
we will enjoy free-roaming elk
Not a docile herd of cow
No jerkoff forest slum
No white boy trophy rum
Just the mountains’ mother
HUMMMMMMMMM
Saturday, June 18, 2022
Jack Miller RIP
Jack Miller's Shrine at his place on Hastings Mesa.
Friends held a marvelous memorial for an amazing man -- climber, adventurer, explorer, maker and friend to many. Many of us got to tell stories about this gentle giant who was not only a bonafide hero for saving the life of a friend stuck on the cliffs at Yosemite with a broken bone, unable to move.
For me he was the best Green I knew, backing me up when I needed political support. A man of deep beliefs, integrity and action.
But a wild fellow who led me on an adventure at the legendary kickass cowboy bar in Ridgway called the Little Chef, where we "prosted" with a German fellow late into the day and then made it back to his digs on the Mesa, three of us on a snowmobile, so drunk we fell over every 20 feet, laughing with each tumble.
Lots of stories. Lots of memories. A friend for all seasons.
Jack Miller